hey, I'm getting enjoy with the 'war' that I've been sick at first !

hoaahh! it's such a tiring weekend. Lucky me, I still had this day to get some rest and preparing either myself or my energy for the next war tommorow. yeaa the word 'war' had it's own meaning for me, lol. most every day in a week I spent a lot of my time for these war. I must struggle hard to compete the crowd of the metromini bus, blok M's busway shelter, and at last but not least, Dukuh atas's busway shelter, oh yea and of course when I get in the trans jakarta bus. whooaaa, it's been a long and hard way for me to reach my campus. oh , have i ever mentioned? err, i'm an undergraduate student majoring in instructional curriculum and technology of education at State University of Jakarta, which is located in Rawamangun- East Jakarta. nd the place where I used to live is in Bintaro - Tangerang, umm it's an outskirts of South Jakarta, hehe. Soo here are my route of my everyday and everlast trip, lol! :

First step
say hello to Mr. Sapri ! My super hero ! hahahaha . Well, he was just soo heroic for me because of his kindness to take me from my house to pasar bintaro-where I can meet the metromini bus-, even he is an important figure in our village, he had his duty as 'Ketua RW' ! hahaha. thank you Pak Haji Sapri !

2nd step
okay, the first war has just begin in this step. I take the metromini S.71 bus which would get me through Blok M. I had a "fight" with the others passangers. haha, well it's a fight to get the seat. soo silly !

but when I get the seat, I usually fall asleep in the bus. *tee

3rd step
right after I get out of the metromini bus, my rivals is increase steadily. On a queue we had a BIG fight to get on the first queue for the ticket. and the worse war happened in transjakarta bus queue . GOSH !! EVERYONE JUST BEING SOO WILD !! theye're starting to hurting and pushing each other just to get on the bus ! gee , hellooo guys, I'm on those war too . hehe , but I'm not the one who did those violence, of course.

4th step
when the bus arrived at dukuh atas shelter, I get out of the bus and walk through the bridge , which is about ummm 1 or 2 km. and get ready for the next queue war. haha. disini antriannya lebih parah ! bisa sampe ke jembatan penyebrangannya loh ! whoaaa.

and finally I arrived at UNJ shelter. hehe

oh iya !! there were a lotsa of crazy moment happened in transjakarta busway .
waktu itu lagi naik busway koridor 4 mau ke kampus sama temen-temen, their name was Dar and Deffi ( weww they're my team on busway fever! haha) At that time, the bus was on the way to manggarai shelter, and then a woman, -umm kira-kira masi kepala 2 lah umurnya- get in the same bus a us. Karena ga ada tempat duduk yang kosong dan bus ini juga uda agak crowded, jadinya dia celiangak - celinguk nyari tempat duduk, tapi harapannya pupus karena ga ada yang kosong , jadi dengan muka bete dya berdiri aja, nah pas dya mau megang pegangan yang di atas - atas itu, dia ngangkat tangannya dan JENG JENG JENG !! we had a surprised from that woman !! she had a beautiful curly and dense of ARMPIT HAIR !! ohhh nooooo !!! that was just sooo disgusted us !! hyahahaha .
gee , how could she feel comfort with those dense - I'm not lying to you ! it was soo dense or heavy !! oh idk , I just feel so disgust!- armpit hair !! GOSH !!

oh yea, here is the picture . this is the crowd of transjakarta:

p.s : bus ini ga terlalu penuh , biasanya malah lebih penuh dari ini. makanya ini bisa foto-foro . haha
p.p.s : sorry I can't upload the pics of those armpit hair woman .*teehee . takut di ketekin ah nanti sama mbak-mbak nya kalo ketawan lagi foto keteknya . hahahahha. sorry mbak !

and there were soo many silly stupidos things happened when I was on the way to campus. Well, at first time I feel so sick livin of this hard trip. but now, I think I've got the rhythm of these war , lol! I just could get thee feel now. hehehehe

ps : did you know the tv program called 'hole in the wall' ?? . haha sometimes when the crowd was just soo full , I could act like that. but the difference is, I was hitting the window, not a wall. so I'm sticking on the wall just like a small house lizard. lol!

hotty hot jakarta !

zz jakarta is getting worse everyday. hoaaahhh. panaaasss banget sih jakartaa ?? sekalinya ujan bikin banjir, hyaaahhh serbasalahdehhhhhh. tapi mendingan musim ujan deh, hehehe

missing the way of happiness

this innocence is brilliance I hope that it will stay, this moment is perfect please don't go away, I need you now .. nd I hold onto it, don't you let it pass you by .. ( innocence - Avril Lavigne )

*these recent days , I always listen to this song, all day, when ever and where ever I am , I always singing this song. This song could give the best describe how I feel recently. and I know why I love this song , because I do missing the way of happiness , I do missing the way of Avril Lavigne has told me in this song ..

but unfortunately , that moment has gone. those happiness never come back to me again since we both -well, it was me- decided to went our own way. It doesn't mean that I regret all this stuff, no I never regret it ! but I just feel like, umm all my planning, all I ever thought before I decide to leave him , was all get me a ZERO result , I mean it doesn't work !!
I got nothing except some feelings of yellow-mellow-fellow-slow nd I hate being in this situation !! hahh.. why it should be happened to me ??
whoaaaa I miss him a lot lot lotsaa !! does he feel the same way to me ?? the moments I ever shared with him was soo beautiful nd makes me wanna cry .

But I could handle it , I could deal with this pain. nd I'm doing good so far - maybe. hhaha yea, as long as I hav a good time with my friends . hehehe. gosh ! my friends was just sooo great to me !! mmuuaahhh I love you friends !. but the love that they give wasn't the same as the love that he give to me. hhuhu..
Sometimes , I wondered , how if he had found someone else to shared ?? umm , I mean 'new' one ?? , what would I do ?? should I looking for a 'new' one too ?? , aaagh ! sometimes those stupidos idea come to my mind and bothering me . YEAAAA if its really really happen to him , I mean, he finds another 'new' one to share, all I have to do just go ahead and smile !!. Life must go on , whether he is care about me or not !! just face it with my cute silly grin . lol !
heyy saqy ! just look outside there ! there are a lotsa stock that you could get . hahaha .*tryin to cheer up myself !

nihh simak baik baik yaa lirik lagunya avril yang ini . well, if you were in such a happy or beautiful situation, pasti ngena banget deh . check this

(innocence - avril lavigne)
Waking up I see that everything is ok
The first time in my life and now it's so great
Slowing down I look around and I am so amazed
I think about the little things that make life great
I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling
This innocence is brilliant
I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect
Please don't go away
I need you now
And I'll hold on to it
Don't you let it pass you by
I found a place so safe, not a single tear
The first time in my life and now it's so clear
Feel calm, I belong, I'm so happy here
It's so strong and now I let myself be sincere
I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling
It's a state of bliss, you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry
It's a state of bliss, you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cryIt's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry
This innocence is brilliant,
It Makes you want to cry
This innocence is brilliance
Please don't go awayCause
I need you now
And I'll hold on to it,
Don't you let it pass you by

but I've made him let it pass him by
once again I explicit you that , I DON'T EVER REGRET IT ! *i wish ..

me vs wheelchair

it was on 7th oct 2008.

that night I arrived at home late, maybe it was about 7 or 8 pm. At that time there was so many children in my house,-umm, my home is an open house, especially for children who want to read books-, but no longer after I arrived, my parents went to having 'silaturahmi' with our neighbors, they asked me if I wanted to go with them or not, err I was so tired so I refused it. Then, I was at home with those children ( I just know that my mom was ask them to accompany me. hhihi , thanks mom : ) !) . But I feel so tired nd I felt pain on my legs, both of them, nd all I wanted to do just got on the bed, nd slept! I didn't have any mood to play ar share or having time with them, I just missed my bed nd pillow , let me took a rest please, kids !. 30minutes later, they told me they wanted to go home, I was just sooo happy! like "whoaaa finally they're gone ! haha' but at the other hand, my legs was very very annoying ! it hurt soo much ! So, after those kids gone, I locked the door nd I walked in hurry to my bed room. I turned on the AC, took my blanket nd having a slept tight, oh yea I almost forgot, I called my Dad to told him that If I'm asleep nd he just arrived at home, just called me and I'll woke up and open the door for them. Gee, but my Dad didn't give me any answers !! hahh.. when I wanted to change my position -umm, I mean , I wanted to hug my pillow- SUDDENLY, I COULDN'T FEEL MY LEGS MOVING !! gee , I didn't hav any idea how to do with it. I wanted to cried, but would anything change if I cried ?? so, I was trying to called my Dad again, but AGAIN, there were no answers !. zz then all I did just praying nd entrust this matter to God . I was trying to moved my legs again, well it work, it did move, but I JUST DIDN'T FELT THAT MY LEGS WERE MOVING zz.
not long after that, my parents came home. hoaahh, I couldn't open the door for them, nd they couldn't get in too because I've locked it! so , I was shouting to my Mom
saqy : "Maaaa, kaki aku saakiiiittt . ga bisa geraaak !!"
mama : "Haaahhh ?? Apa sakit ??"
saqy : "Kakii akuuu !!"

nd then My mom got me on my room window

saqy : ma, kaki ku sakit mati rasa ga bisa bergerak.
mama : laahhh ?? kok bisa ?? trus mama masuk lewat mana ??
saqy : gak tauu
mama : yaudah, bukain jendelanya
saqy (bukain jendela)
mama (masuk lewat jendela -zz,ada naluri spiderman nih nyokap- hhihi)

ga lama setelah itu, nykp mungkin panik kali ya, tapi gw sih calm down aja, abis dulu juga pernah kayak gini, I couldn't felt my legs waktu jaman SD. Akhirnya gw dibawa ke rumah sakit (RSIB ,red). digendong bokap naik mobil. hhihihi uda lama ga digendong ! yaaa tuhaaann kaki lagi sakit sempet-sempetnya mikir begitu !
sampe dirumah sakit, bertemulah aku dengan si 'wheelchair' hhehehe. and then, I jumped to that thing. dari dulu pengeeeennn banget naik kursi roda, tapi ga pernah kesampean.
nyampe rumah sakit jam 10, ehh I hav chance to met the doctor at 00.00 !! zz imagine that ?? I'm a patiently patient. hhihihi
eh iya, my mom hold my legs at that time, and you know what ?? she got vomited . zz brarti dahsyat juga tuh penyakit kaki gw. hiiiihhh
ketemu dokter, kaki gw disuntik ! whoaaa I thought the doctor was pshyco ! gee ! he looks smiling when I had to injured ! noooooo !!!!!!
eh ya, trus gw di rontgen juga, disuruh ganti baju. sempet bingung , ini gw buka baju semuanya apa ga yaa ?? tapi malu ah kalo dibuka semua . bahahaha geblek amatt dah ! noraaakk dasar saqy !

sekarang gw kangen sama itu kursi roda. pengen jalan - jalan di RS pake kursiroda lagii. tapi ga mau sakit lagi kakinya. hhehhehehe.
Ooohhh wheelchair I miss youu !! mmuuuaaahhh . lol !

ps : sanking senengnya gw naik kursi roda, jadinya bw berasa uda jago gitu jalan-jalan kesana kemari keliling RSIB naik kursi roda ga pake didorongin bokap. bangga gw ! hahahahaha.

mom, i'm on tv ! yippieey = ]

i feel sooo tired fully tired today. I woke up it was 7.30 am nd when I opened my eyes, everyone was sooo busy with their stuff. nd me ?? so did I, I was busy with my stuff too - it was bed, pillow nd blanket- *teehee. I was tryin' hard to get myself up. hooaaahhmm,, but it was too heavy. So I was making myself forming a BIG star. I stared the ceilling, it was white soo white like a baby's heart, -white and no spot of dirt-, then my eyes took a walk through the corner of those ceilling, there was a spider web. huhh soo annoying. Finally, I forced myself to get up and I took a broom to clean those annoying spider web. at that time, I was wondering "well, what kind of broom could remove a spider web in my heart ??" . haha I felt silly at that time, but now, I'm thinking on it again. yeaa, what kind of broom could make our heart clean again ?? no one knows. Well, maybe it was , umm an apologize statement ?? is that enough ?? errr no one knows. but at least, we've tryin to remove it.

oh yea, yesterday I was having a workshop on metro tv.
haha seru deh. dari pagi sebelum berangkat aja uda seru banget , apalagi pas berangkatnya.
well, it started at Saturday morning , 18 oct 08 . I woke up at 5.30 am. at that time, I received a sms from my classmate, nonni. she was inviting me for hundred times to participate 'demo crazy' show on metro tv, but last night I was refusing her. soo, at that morning, she asked me once again, and it made me think harder. haha. I asked my mom nd dad

me : ma, aku ikut ga ya ke demo crazy ??
bokap : ya ampun dari kemaren. Udah ikut aja !
nyokap : iya udah sana ikut.
me : ck, bosen ga ya ntar ??
nyokap : ngga ! udah sana ikut, dan BERTANYA yaa !
me ( talking to myself ) : huhh ?? please deh mom, pengen banget anaknya eksis ! haha
bokap : emang jam berapa ?
me : janjian di dukuh atas jam 9 sih
nyokap : hahh ? yauda sana cepet mandi ! prepare yourself !
me : ikut nih jadinya ??
nyokap : iyaaaa
me : anterin sampe dukuh atas yaa ??
nyokap : no way !! sampe trans bintaro aja.

zz tambah males aja gw, begitu denger naik transbintaro. yaa jelas telat lah maaam !
then I took a bath, yeaa duck bathing,-mandi bebek-, lol. 5menit selesai. hehehe.
I feel ready to went out, nd still persuade my mom to took me til dukuh atas busway shelter.
but SHE IS HARD TO PERSUADE, sooo tetep aja cuma dianter sampe trans bintaro. Well, she asked me in two choices, transbintaro or right away to campus. Err, I almost pick the second choices, but , umm I've made a promise to nonni to met at dukuh atas. soo, I said "well, okay, transbintaro".
ehehe but when I knew who took the ride was my Dad, soo, I persuade him to took me until I get on the metro mini,-it called S.74 , serving rempoa through blok m-, hihihi. Finally , My Dad took me til Tanah Kusir nd I get on S.74 bus, so that I didn't have to having traffic jam ! yiippieeyy !! thanks dad !(ehm, organon macet banget soalnya, jadi bokap gw lewat tol sampe tanah kusir deh, jadi gw ga kena macet . asikasik!)

when I arrived at campus , my senior had me a BAD NEWS. you know what ?? the show was start at 15.00 !! padahal tuh gw nyampe kampus jam 10 ! gilaaaa , mau ngapain dulu gw di kampus ?? tau gini gw ke ancol aja dehh nonton peewee gaskins ! haha.
but then , ternyata senior gw punya alasan bagus , she said "biar kita dapet makan siang, jadinya kita berangkatnya jam 11 aja, oke ??" . hahaha licik juga dia. lol !

jam 11 kita berangkat dari kampus.
sampe di metro tv, we CAN NOT hide our narcissism !! foto2 lah kita di metro tv , sampe sama karpet yang ada foto si lambang metro tv itu ikut2 difoto. ckck. maklum dehh, banyak perantau. haha.

here are the photos xp !

the shooting was started at 17.00 !! imagine that , huh ?? we've been waiting for ,umm 2hours ! yacks, pas shooting mulai , tampang uda pada kusut, ngantuk , setengah sadar. haha. dan sialnyaaa , mas-mas yg tukang ngatur itu nunjuk gw buat duduk di depan !! on stage !! GOSH !! gw kutuk tuh mas-mas jadi kodok ! lol. dan si mas-mas itu bilang gini dengan santainya "Ade-ade semua, tau ngga saya taro sini kenapa ?? soalnya kalian ini ntar jadi background, apalagi KAMU ,kamu dan kamu(pointing at me and 3 persons besides me), pasti bakal sering kesorot, soalnya kamu ada di belakang MC nya, center of attention. JADI, KAMU HARUS SENYUM ,oke ??"
HELLOO !! DON'T YOU KNOW THAT I AM SLEEPY ??
jadinyaaa, selama shooting berlangsung, yang ada muka gw ga enak banget ! ngantuk ngatuk gimanaaa gitu ! stengah sadar, senyum maksa ! haha.

well watch me tonite on metro tv at 21.05 . zz but just don't laugh it loud !!